Story time. When I got married, I had picked out my own wedding dress. It was a small white cotton dress with eyelet detail, perfect for the small even I was holding. My mother HATED that dress and thought it was in no way an appropriate wedding dress. So she took it upon herself to browse my Pinterest until she found an fell in love with this dress. The Trashy Diva Honey dress in Antique White, she secretly took my measurements and ordered it for me. I found all of this out the day she asked me to come over alone and had me do my first fitting! It slipped on effortlessly and just as seamlessly I fell in love. It hugged all the right curves, accentuated all of my assets and had POCKETS! I donned it for my mid February wedding where my mother walked me down the aisle, and again on my honeymoon for pictures and Disney’s spring Dapper Day event.
Two months later my mother was gone, taken from me by the cancer her body had created.
Now my husband has asked me for a divorce and I’m not upset. Yes it hurts but I will prevail and move on just the same way my mother did. I open my closet everyday and I am face to face with the most bittersweet memory. The dress I love so dearly because my mom picked it for me, but that I associate with my failure of a marriage. For weeks I have thought about this and today I’ve decided what I will do.
My mother purchased this dress with the idea that I would wear it at the happiest moment of my life. I am going to honor her by doing just that. My hope is to attend the 2015 Fall Soirée Dapper Day Event at Disneyland. Disney was a large part of my relationship with my mother and it is where I am happiest.
So here’s to you momma! I’m gonna go be the confident young woman you knew I would be. I love you.